One question I get asked a lot, especially during youth
group, is if I have seen some TV show or if I have seen the newest movie…
Typically, my answer is always the same, “Nope, I don’t TV
much, but tell me about it!”
This normally takes a few people by surprise…You don’t watch
TV!?
Well I did not say that, but I don’t watch TV very
much. In all honesty, I have not had
cable in almost 3 years and I think Batman:
The Dark Knight Rises was the last movie I saw in theaters…that came out in
2012.
Recently I was turned on to one television series by my sister
and brother-in-law. So now I am almost
all caught up with The Walking Dead.
If you are not familiar with the show, it is essentially a
show that follows the lives a group of people in and around the Atlanta area as
they try to survive in a post-apocalyptic world filled with zombies.
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So I watched an episode last night and there was a line that
really bothered me for some reason. So,
in the show, there is one character who gets separated from the group and ends
up living in a hospital. Let’s call her
Beth.
So Beth, is living in this hospital and learning how things
operate here but soon realizes that it is not all cupcakes and rainbows in this
“sanctuary” from the troubles of the outside world.
In one of the scenes when Beth is asking why no one stands
up to the evil or why no one does anything the response she received was, “When
they arrested Christ, Peter denied being one of his disciples. He didn’t have a choice, they would have
crucified him too.”
Immediately my thought was… “Uh, Peter WAS crucified. By the same people….by being nailed to a
cross…”
I also thought….he definitely had a choice… at that time, he
CHOSE to deny him…
But why?
While all this was on my mind, I reflected back to that time
I was doing Lectio Divina on a beach in Greece.
(Which is just amazing that I can say that as an actual sentence!)
So this happened while I was on Pilgrimage with Holy
Communion in 2005. I still remember to
this day the exact Lectio Divina because it was such a powerful moment for
me.
The passage we reflected over was Mark 10: 17-22, The Rich Man. In this passage, a young man goes up to Jesus
and asks what he must do to receive eternal life. They have a short conversation that ends with
Jesus telling the young man that he must give seel all of his possessions, give
the money to the poor, and follow him.
The man became sad and was upset because he had many possessions.
I remember sitting there and listening to others talk about
how they think they would have handled this conversation with Jesus. How they think they would have felt being
given this response. And how they felt
they would be able to give up all their possessions.
While all this was going on…I sat there in silence.
To me, I was not afraid of the answer I would have received…
I was not afraid of the giving up of my possessions…
But I was petrified of the thought of walking up to Jesus
and asking him this question!
I did not think I would have had the guts. I did not think my faith was strong enough to
even have that conversation.
In a single word…I was afraid.
I went back and look through my journal from this past year’s
Pilgrimage we took to Germany. We again
used the same passage, Mark 10, for a Lectio Divina.
I read my response this time and I had a completely
different response. While journaling on
this subject, I reflected on the last time I had studied this passage in this
way, and thought about my response from then, and compared it to me response
this past summer…
“I think I would be able to approach Jesus now. I think.
I would pray that I am able to.”
The fear is still there…but it is not keeping me from acting
like it had before.
I think that is why I was bothered by the quote earlier.
“When they arrested
Christ, Peter denied being one of his disciples. He didn’t have a choice, they would have
crucified him too.”
Peter had a choice.
Peter was afraid and that was why he did not act…at that
time.
Sometimes doing the right thing…
Being a Christian…
Living a life that we know we are suppose to…
It is NOT easy…
It can be very scary…
And sometimes our fears get the best of us.
It keeps us from God.
It makes us feel afraid to approach Jesus; like I felt…
It makes us afraid to admit that we or a disciple of Christ;
like Peter did…
It makes us feel weak…even if our spirit is willing…
But if you feel that way…you are not alone.
But when you put you faith in God, you can do great things.
Have faith in God...
God has faith in you!
Light the Fire by Bill Maxwell
I stand to praise you, but I fall to my knees.
My Spirit is willing, but my flesh is so weak.
So Light the Fire in my soul.
Fan the flame, make me whole.
Lord you know, just where I’ve been;
So Light the Fire in my heart, again.
I feel your arms around me
As the power of your healing begins.
You breath new life right through me
Like a mighty rushing wind.
I long to love you,
but my hearts so far away
You say you’re near me
Teach my heart to see your face.
So Light the Fire in my soul.
Fan the flame, make me whole.
Lord you know, just where I’ve been;
So Light the Fire in my heart, again.
